It begins..

Tomorrow it begins....

4 straight exams over 4 consecutive days...... >.<

I wished I had managed to prepare more.... I wanted to have written up all my prepared answers before it begins, so that each day I'll just have to concentrate on cramming it all in.  However that didn't happen...oh wellz.

First up is Greek - my most confident one...and the one I've done the least work on (did not touch Greek basically until today...and even then I only spent half the day on it).

Then is New Testament.  I'm confident with Acts (2 questions to answer), but not very prepared with the Epistles (1 question on genre/audience/purpose etc..).

Church history I've written up all my prepared answers...surprisingly!!  So I hopefully should do well..as long as Rhys doesn't come up with really different questions >.<

Last is Old Testament... in which I haven't managed to even find the answers for 2 of the questions...but oh wellz...I'll have to do lots of work on Wednesday night...which will be very hard after 3 exams hahaha...

On another note... I'm pretty sure I got caught by a red light camera yesterday (actually i'm 110% sure cuz the flash went off).  I dunno what I was thinking... I was just dazed and drained from all the study...and was driving home......I knew that there was a camera there...but yeah...

Really sucky...cuz I think the fine will be like $350....

But the more I think about it...worst things could have happened than just a fine.  Really, worse things HAVE happened in the past... so this is really nothing.  It's a big waste of money... but maybe God allowed me to get caught like this so that I would learn.... it may save my life some day???  I dunno...but I've been doing heaps on Job and wisdom literature.  Seeking wisdom and understanding in life......  And in Job we have God answering Job, explaining that his plans are bigger than just about Job (and infact bigger than even just humankind).  

Every time something bad happens... instead of just crying out to God "why meeeee???", maybe sit back and think that maybe God has a bigger plan somewhere in this.  And by this, I mean bigger plan than just about yourself.  People always say God has a bigger plan...thinking that maybe through misfortunate something good will happen - like you'll grow, you'll learn...etc.  But it doesn't have to be about you.  Bad stuff happens in your life... maybe cuz God has a bigger plan which has nothing to do with you!!  

Just sit back, trust God who's in control of the universe... and enjoy the ride!!!

Missing Photography..

Sigh I miss photography..

Life is so much simpler with photography...

Trying really hard to find reasons to be in this world atm...

Biblical Hebrews or Not?

At the moment faced with a dilemma for next year's subject choices:

Should I do Biblical Hebrews or not?

One of my main passion for entering Theology College was to try to learn how to read the Bible in its original language - ie Ancient Greek and Hebrews....  However there's a lot of factors now.

1. There's way too many other subjects I want to do, and if I do Hebrews, that'll take up 2 subjects that I could be doing something else.

2. How important is it to be able to read Hebrews?

3. I guess this is actually my main worry - I don't know if I'll be able to become very good at it.  Greek is already starting to wear me down.  I do very well in class and in tests, but when I open up the Bible and try to read it as it is in Greek....I find that I still can't.  There's still so many words I don't know...so many strange forms...  But I will persevere, and hopefully one day I will reach my goal of being able to open up the Greek Bible and just read it without any aids.

But this leads me to Hebrews.  Hebrews has ALOT (and I mean A LOT!!) more vocabs, in a writing style that I've never seen before.  Will I ever be able to master it?

I've seen too many pastors who learn original language only to lose it cuz they never really use it.  If that's gonna be the case with me and Hebrews, then I certainly DON'T want to waste 2 subjects doing it.

There's the option that I can just do the Intensive to get a sense of the grammar and alphabet, so I can read commentaries and stuff better.

In the end... I still want to do it.... but I worry that I'm going to regret it after next year...

But... to be able to read the Bible in its original language.....

         ..... soooo cool....  I want....

Late..

History Essay was due in today.

But I've been so stressed, that yesterday I decided just not to do it.  Stress' been driving me insane lately.

So I'll be handing it in late.  Up to a week late is loss of 15%.  I actually thought it was gonna be just 10%, but because our grading system as + and - (ie B+, B, B- etc..), one grade drop is 15%.  Oh wellz.

I've never actually handed anything in late before in my life.  It feels very weird.  I felt extremely weird yesterday knowing that I was going to hand stuff in late.  And yet today's been such a relief...

Been so busy with stuff....but that's just an excuse.  I know I should have gotten it done.  

Trying to get marks has been such a stressful thing in my life.  The expectations....  And yet marks didn't turn out to be worth anything.  Just stressing and shortening my lifespan for stupid reason.

I decided not to care so much about marks anymore...and just stress less.  I learnt a lot...and the marks do not really indicate how much I've learnt or not.

Next few days will be very busy...hope I actually have time to actually finish the essay haha...

Myers Briggs

Hm, I finally did a short (70 question) Myers Briggs test.

Result is that I am an INTJ (Introvert, iNtuition, Thinking, Judging)

Seems like an ENTJ would be a good match for me lol :p  

I wonder if that's true.  Personality tests are always funny..... But looking at the category, I would say that I agree that I am an INTJ (even if based upon definition alone).

God's Love..

Lately... I feel that I need more of God's love..

   Firstly to sustain me in my life..

 And also to sustain my interaction with other people...

Only God's love indwelling inside me can change..

   How I think and feel about other people..

Father I want to be your love to the other people..

  Please fill me with your love..

 So that I may be able to overflow onto others.

Without you..

  I am nothing.

Reason..

The things of this life....

There is really nothing there is there?

It's fine saying everything in the world is meaningless....

But when you feel that in the church, amongst Christian ppl....really makes you wonder.

Life...

2 Cor 5:8

Phil 1:23

The only reason I'm still here is God.  Else I wouldn't even be here...

Almost there...

2 Exams down.... 1 more to go....

What's been the worse is trying to study right after your exam.  Usually I'm soooo drained and tired that day after finish the exam....and yet now I have to try to study for tomorrow's exam!  3 back-to-back exams is a killer!  But at least it'll be over quickly!!

*Add oil!!*...

Downshifting Gears...

"This Ezra came up from Babylon. 

He was a teacher well versed in the Law of Moses,

 which the Lord, the God of Israel, had given.

The king had granted him everything he asked, 

  for the hand of the Lord his God was on him.

For Ezra had devoted himself

  to the study and observance of the Law of the Lord

 and to teaching its decrees and laws in Israel."

                                                    (Ezra 7:6, 10)

How amazing, to be able to devote your whole life to study the Word of God,

  to use what you have learnt to teach others,

 not forgetting that you yourself should be shaped by God's Word as well.

Ok.  Time to downshift my gears as we're heading to exam times!

Wisdom..

God really does give wisdom when you seek and ask Him..

     Even though it may not come straight away.......

Leviticus..

Leviticus has dominated the last 2 weeks of my life.

It's been interesting, 

   agonizing, 

                amazing, 

     frustrating,

                 illuminating,

       confusing.

I've learnt so much from doing all my research and readings...and yet I feel like I know nothing at all.

The problem is that Leviticus is written more like a manual on how to do things...not WHY.  Consequently there are so many different arguments and interpretations of what it means.

Even the individual sacrifices themselves are confusing and have varied opinions.

My Old Testament essay topic is to write about the Theological message of Leviticus Chapters 1-7 (The 5 sacrificial rituals), but I found that there was very little info on that.  Instead most commentaries/journals argue over the meaning of the individual sacrifices, and the word Atonement (kpr).  I found that it was good though, as I really wanted to know what they all meant as well.  Thus I think I've spent a lot of my time reading things related to the sacrifices....but not related to my essay topic!!  That's actually how life has been working lately haha.  I'm reading all these non-examinable stuff in my other subjects too...

On top of that... I've been sick for the past week or so.  Throat is sore, and I'm coughing furiously (especially at night).  Thus I'm tired and really can't be bothered doing work.... (which explained why I've started watching this japanese drama haha.... >.<)

Anyway, I have just now finished summarising the notes from all the numerous sources that I've read.  The essay is due the day after tomorrow.... in the morning. Tomorrow is a packed day....so I'm a bit screwed.

I'm probably going to skip Personal Evangelism class tomorrow, so I can finish my essay.  And then go into uni for New Testament class in the evening.  Unfortunately I don't feel that I learn very much in the Personal Evangelism class.... and am a bit annoyed that they removed Hermeneutics from the syllabus and replaced it with Ministry Foundations (which I don't think is very helpful at all...).  I don't like missing class...but I think I need to sleep in to recover from my sickness anyway (I can't sleep at night nowadays...and coughing has screwed it up even more).

Back to the topic of Leviticus.....

I think that we too often look at these laws/system in regard to the New Testament, know Jesus' death on the cross.  It blinds us, and stops us from fully understanding.  There are so many amazing things about God that we can discover if we only leave behind the knowledge of Jesus' work.

Its funny.... every time I read/hear/learn something about God, the first thing I start thinking about, is how I can share that to other people.  How can I reshape it, and put it into a form that would make sense, and be easy for other people to understand?  Even with this Leviticus, I'm thinking of how I can possibly put it together to present at a Bible Study (though it might actually take 2 sessions or so haha).

I guess that just shows that one of my calling really is to teach...since that's the first thing on my head when I learn something new.

I'm also starting work this Friday.  Found a job working as an optometrist at nursing homes / age-care facilities.  My old work place (ACO) also called as asked if I still want to work Saturdays.  So from now on I'll be working every Friday and Saturdays too.

I'm a bit scared...haven't worked for 2.5 months... I'm afraid that I've forgotten stuff >.<  I'll also be teaching when I'm working at ACO too.  Well all I can do is pray and depend on God.

Knowingly scammed..

So yesterday I was out in the city...

This guy came up to me and my friend, and said that he's really stuck and if we could help him.  His car's out of petrol and he really needs to get to this place about 70km away by tonight.  His wife's in the car and he's pregnant so he can't just leave her there. He's out of money, and somehow his bank card's not working.  He needs to buy the container that stores petrol, which is about $20, and another $30 for petrol.

Said he's not a druggie, and showed me his driver's license.  Had a Myki card in there too.  Asked if we could help.

Sounded really dodgy....always dodgy when someone starts saying their wife/gf is pregnant....seems like a standard scam line nowadays....

Yet...I dunno why... but I thought I'd help.  I was gonna pull out $20...but for some random reason I decided to give $40.  When I gave it away I accepted in my mind that I wasn't going to get it back.

He got my number and said that tomorrow he'll call me for my bank details and he'll bank transfer it back.

So yeah... then I walked off.  Part of me knew I was getting scammed...but then part of me wonder if we shouldn't try to have a bit more faith, rather than in this cynical reality.

I accepted that I was probably being scammed...and yet i still gave it over.  Thinking back I should have only given $20..but somehow in that moment I gave $40...

I figured...and wondered.... if I get scammed 10x, but one time it was actually true and I did help someone in need....then would it be worth it?  In that scene I viewed my giving of my money as giving to God...rather than to them.  Would God be pleased with my action....my naive-ness/innocence? 

Anyway...and of course I got no call today.  And it's a funny feeling.  Cuz I don't really feel that bad...but then I wonder if I should be feeling bad and jibbed....

So it comes back to 2 questions:

1. Is it worth it to risk being jibbed/scam for the small chance that it's actually true and you're actually helping someone?

2. How can we be a good Samaritan in this world of dodgy-ness?

I can only imagine that people would be even more dodgy in Jesus' time... when people scam/jib/rip off other people because life is so much more desperate.... life so much harder... less moral structure and more survival of the fittest......

Interesting thoughts.....

Easter..

Easter....

Hm.......

Remember Jesus...

Consider Jesus....

ὁ ‘Ιησους ὁ υἱος του θεου......

ἀπέθανεν ὑπὲρ τῶν ἁμαρτιῶν ἡμῶν.....

Insomnia..

For some reason....

   For the past few weeks...

My insomnia has returned...

I'm tired..

    I want to go to sleep..

  And yet...

     I just lie here in my bed...

Why is sleep to hard to attain?

   Why does it always allude me..

Journey - searching for $1 McDonald Small Coke..

I don't usually get cravings...

But last Friday, after playing tennis I suddenly had a huge thirst for Coca Cola... water just wasn't cutting it.

Had about an hour to kill, and remembered that McDonalds now has a $1-2 menu....and the small coke was $1!!

So I drove around to find a McDonalds.  Finally found one that's suppose to be next to Masters on Ballarat Rd.

I parked...then walked around trying to find my way into Macca's....... couldn't find it!  I see the yellow M sign....but that's it!!

After a while I finally realised that it's INSIDE Master's.....  so then I walked around and walked in.

I stood, waited to be served......

   A few minutes later a girl came from the back of Macca's...

      And told me that they just closed...and are cleaning up to end the night >.<

So continues my search for Coke....

I then went out..and drove around more.....

Finally found another McDonald's.  Decided to go drive-through this time.

I went...then ordered.

Then went to the next window........

            but there was no one there!

     So then I drove up to the next window.

  Only to have that lady tell me that I needed to go pay back at the previous window!

I claimed that no one was there, but she explained that the other person must've just stepped out.

I then looked into my rear mirror so I can reverse... and there's already another car behind me >.<

Soooooooo  I had to get out of my car in the middle of the drive-through....  walked back to the previous window... paid my $1... then walked back into my car.

THEN I got my $1 coke............

So concludes my story........ of searching for $1 McDonald's Small Coke... >.<

Overall it took me 40 minutes to get the drink ~~~~~~

Drawn...

Why is it...

That in my studies I seem to find the non-examinable stuff very interesting...

And then spend a significant part of my time looking more into it...

When it's not examinable...hahahahaha.

Took a look at the New Testament past exams today..

They're hard..

   very hard... >.<

Only comforting thing is that a few questions seem to keep coming up every exam...

  So I'll try to prepare for those...and then hope for the best.

Need to find a job.  That email I sent away like 2 weeks ago.... never got a reply.  

Actually I got a reply straight away.  That lady forwarded it to another lady the next day.  But since then nothing.  I tried sending a follow up email to the second lady...but still nothing >.<

Good thing is that lately haven't been going out much...so much spending as much as before....

But... I do miss working.....

Fasting..

Hm... Fasting.....

Now that's a cool concept.....

Why haven't I thought about doing it before???  Probably cuz the Bible doesn't explain much about Fasting.  It mentions fasting lots of times...but there's never like any instruction on what it is or how to do it...

Anyway... lately I've been thinking about the concept of fasting..... then today I was browsing my library at Ridley cuz I was bored of studying.... and Lo-and-behold... I see a book on fasting ^_^.  SCORE!

Started reading a bit...but so far it just talks about practical aspects.  Motives....Who shouldn't fast....What type of fast etc.  I dunno....nothing I didn't know before.  But at least it's allowing me to think more about it.

Fasting....food.  

None of that wimpy fasting-other-things-cuz-i-don't-want-to-fast-food like internet/fb etc.... :p

Very interesting topic indeed!!

Leadership?

Why does leadership seems so lonely and isolating sometimes....?

I know you're doing it for God.....but does that mean it should be isolating?

Looking at my group,

    Those under my care....

 I can see that they're getting closer to each other,

    Just like I planned and wanted...

And yet......

    I can see that I'm outside that circle...

       And I can see the distance extending further and further..

Why is it...

   That often, the times that I feel the most isolated...

      And that I'm the most alienated and not really fitting in....

    Is when I'm around other Christians?

  Does it have to do with leadership?

       Or is it really just because of me in general.

Maybe it really is just me....

     How my personality is.....

I should sleep..

It's almost 3am....

I should really go to sleep..lol!

Had a great evening/night tonight...celebrating Jon's birthday with his Cross-culture cell group!  Good catch up and good conversations.

Okay...bed time :)

Birthday Celebrations!

Today has been a great day!! (Well technically _yesterday_ as it's almost 2am now haha..

Had a BBQ to celebrate my birthday (even tho it's actually on Wednesday, not today).  Had the people closest to me come to celebrate with me.  This was mainly people from the 3 churches (my church Reservoir, Vicwest, and West Footscray), but also Bao and Zeinab came by and helped out as well!  Overall probably about 35ish people??  Thanks so much to my parents for preparing and arranging everything, and for cooking during the whole time!!

We mainly just chilled and played frisbee and throwing the vortex.  Initially I felt that a few groups just went off somewhere and sat by themselves... but after I made that comment to them (and encouraged them to join the rest), they did!  Meat wasn't cooked fast enough... cuz the BBQ stopped working, or stopped being very hot.... but in the end I think it was good.

Went back to my house afterwards to chill, and most actually did!  Even Peter, who said he was gonna go home cuz he was too tired, came by and spent most of the night at my house (yay!).  Mainly just ate the cake, played cranium, angel and assassins, and taboo!  Bit crowded with so many people, but I think because of that everyone could chill with ppl.  Hopefully no one felt left out >.<.

Was very surprised that so many people bought me presents or chipped in to get me presents!  While I'm not a big gifts person, I do feel very loved that ppl took the effort and the money to get me these things.  Also the cards have been awesome!!  I just feel bad cuz I'm not a great gifts person... and so when I open the gifts I can't be super excited and happy (!!!) etc....  So sometimes I give off the vibe that I don't like my presents... but that's not true at all!!!!

A lot of clothes...which is good cuz I never go shopping.  Guess that's my shopping for the next year :D

Anyway, tomorrow tennis in the morning!!  Then church (have to practice our Easter Play), and then at night join in for Jon's surprise dinner!! (hopefully he doesn't read this....I don't think he follows my blog hahahaha).  Fun fun...cuz the next day is Labour Holiday!!!!!!!! yay!!!  I think I'll be spending it studying hahahaha >.<

Updating life

This week as been such a bludge week.  I think I was so stressed about holding information in my head for the Greek exam, that from last monday after the exam I just can't be bothered anymore haha.  So this week has seen me do the least amount of work so far.  I was supposed to meet up with a friend to study today; but when she canceled out on me I just ended up lying around at home haha.

Just got back from playing pool in the city with John, Kris, and Van.  Then the Vicwest people joined us near the end before I left.  Played pretty well today.  Dunno what happened last week, when I choked majorly in the competition >.<

About the Greek exam, I actually thought it was a bit too easy.  Like I felt like I had way over-prepared for it haha.  There was barely anything from the last week (and I felt that the last week was the most confusing too, as there were so many variations and possibilities).  In the end the exam was all pretty basic.  Also there was no request to translate from English to Greek (which has been tested basically in every single test up to now).  And going from English to Greek is way harder than going from Greek to English!  I guess that the point is to read the Greek Bible...so we never really go from English to Greek.  However if you can do that, it shows that you've really consolidated your knowledge.  So I finished the exam in like 35 mins (for the 70 min exam), and spent the rest going over my stuff.

Greek has been very very awesome.  While it seems to have a reputation of being hard, I've been finding it much easier than the other subjects.  This is very strange as I really really suck at languages.  I've done lots of languages through out high school...and sucked at all of them...and remember none now.

I've felt this clear calling to do Bible College.  And this clear calling, aside from my passion and thirst and wanting to be used by God more and more, is the events in my life.  Optometry is a great profession to do something else as: 1. you can get a job for 1-2 days a week easily. 2. you can actually earn quite a bit of money even just working 1-2 days (which indicates to me that I really SHOULD go find a job soon haha...I'm so lazy...).  

In my stage of life there is nothing hindering me.  No mortgage, still living at home, have money saved, and (unfortunately?) no attachment to the other gender (elegant way of saying I have no gf :p).  So easy to give up my full-time job and start this.  And I've been very at peace with it.  Haven't worried about where money will come from (though maybe I should start...cuz I think I've still been spending money as much as when I was working full-time >.<), and God's blessed me with my brother and my church supporting me (amazing cuz I did not ask for it).

On Wednesday night this was further confirmed to me, with my Greek lecturer Andrew congratulating me for me exam result.  Now I don't want to seem like I'm bragging.... but I believe that it's God's grace, and I feel so so blessed by God that I need to share this.  And this result further grounds me in my belief that I'm currently where God wants me to be.  Anyway Andrew said that I lost 1/2 a mark, out of 70!  Which is absolutely amazing (tho the high-achievingness in me is wondering where on earth I could have lost 1/2 a mark lol).  Overall I think this puts my subject mark for Greek A at 99%!! 

Now I need to stress that I suck at languages!  And I know fully that this is all God's grace.  Marks actually wasn't my intent.  I would LOVE to be able to read the bible in greek.  Hopefully I'm well on my way :)

Anyway I'm pretty sure that I won't do anywhere as good with the rest of the subjects, as they require essay writings etc.... and I suck at writing essays.  Plus these Arts essays seem to be different to my uni writing (different even when I compared to how I was supposed to write essays back in year 12!).  I figured that I'll just write this first essay how I think I should write, and then change it based upon the feedback.

So that means no more bludging next week!!!!

Busy Busy

Wow I've actually forgotten that I have a blog lol!

Been so busy.  Intensive on Greek is now over... But still had 2 sessions on Greek every monday.  Next Monday is the big Exam...and then we go straight into Greek B (continuing every monday).

I've decided to do New Testaments on Wednesday nights instead of Tuesdays morning.  This way I only have classes Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday!  Classes are from around 9am-1pm on Mon and Thurs.  On Wednesday I have classes from 9-1pm.  Then a break.  Then night class from 5:45pm-9pm (with dinner included).  It wasn't too bad last week, as I just hung around and did some study and talked to some people.  The evening class is actually good as it's with mostly different people.  Mainly it's people who usually work; and they just do one subject a semester.

Already got 2 essays due.  A bit overwhelmed with the workload atm....I'm actually considering if I really should work Fridays at all....

Having said that..last week I basically went out on Tuesday, Friday, and Saturday hahahahahah.......  Okay I need to study this week.

And yet...it's hard to spend the whole day studying...I'd rather just like half a day, and then meet up/go out with ppl for the other half....hmm.

On another topic, my parents are coming back this Wednesday.  I've had the house to myself for the past 3 weeks.....and it's a complete mess haha.  I need to do some packing/cleaning tomorrow I guess.

On another topic...I got a parking fine today :(  I usually park in a 5hr free parking, which is situated about 3-5min walk from the college.  Today I came out and saw the fine. I checked the time I was fined, and it was like 2:25pm.  Now I dropped the car off at around 9:20am.....so that meant I was only over by 5 mins when they fined me!!!!!   It's not too bad though...as I've been leaving the car there for like 7hours most days I'm at Ridley lol!  And only got fined today.  $61.....guess it's not too bad.  Though still very very sucky >.<

Guess I'll be moving the car from tomorrow onwards......

Or maybe I should just get a motorbike again..... though today it was raining very heavily >.<

One week of new life

So it's been one week since I started my "new life"!  Today's Sunday, and tomorrow starts a new week of Bible college.

It's been actually really really good.  The teacher's been great.  I love being back in class-room learning style rather than lectures.  And so far I've been able to pick up Koine Greek pretty well.  I don't like rote learning, but I find that I'm pretty good at it.  I just keep rewritting it till it sticks in my head haha.

The first day was a killer, but after that it's actually been pretty cruisy.  It's actually not as hard/intensed as I thought it would be.  However I still have to spend every afternoon studying.  After class finish around 1pm I would study till around 4pm then go home.  Still a lot better than working haha.

I've confirmed that study life is way way way way better than work life.  I always tell my friends who are in uni that working full-time sux, but now I've confirmed it.  It's so flexible and good.  Even if I stay around and study, I still get home around 4:30pm, in easy traffic.  Ridley's only around 30 mins from my house (tho now that school's started it'll probably be around 35-40mins).  Much better than the 50mins I take to go to Carlton (even tho Carlton's only like 2 km further, the traffic really banks up near my work!).   I love starting at 9:30am, although once normal uni starts I think I start 9am for most classes.  I find that I can concentrate for quite long, compared to back in my uni days.  I guess working full-time really does build up ur concentration.  Also I have so much motivation to study!!  I hope the other subjects are just as good and interesting!

Praise God, this place is great.  Although near the end of the week I was started to get a bit tired of constantly studying...hopefully the weekend's refreshed me and I can start again.  Supposedly it'll be similar work-load in 2nd week, but get super intensed in the final week.

We have our young adults retreat this Friday....guess I'll just bring all my work and study there hahahaha!

So far everything's been great...except I have no job so have no income.  Also been playing pool a lot...and people don't seem to pay or just pay very little...and thus I've been paying for the bulk of pool.  Like in the last 3 days I've spent almost $50 on pool...... yeah I've gotta start cutting down.  That's a lot of spending even IF I was working.  But since I'm not I need to really cut back.

No plans to see anyone this week, so should be ok (last week I have plans to meet up with ppl on Wed/Thurs/Fri, but Thurs one person canceled on me so ended up being out on Wed/Fri).  Study study study.  

Though I still want to hang out with people.......always need friends......

Sigh...friends....friendship.....hmmmm...

Kev

1st Day Of My New Life

Hey hey, so I figured I should post something about today (well it's yesterday now since it's past midnight).

1st day at Ridley!!!  Yay!!!

So I showed up at 9am (classes started at 9:30).  It was a bit awkward...just wandering around.  Saw a few other random people around...but didn't talk much.  Then figured I should get a seat so I can be close to the front (tho not at the front haha).  Started talking to a guy named Dan.  Commented that his textbook looked very worn...it's been well used!  Turned out this is his 2nd attempt at it :S

Was pretty nervous.  But once it started it was actually very good!  The lecturer: Andrew Malone, is an awesome lecturer.  It was more of a classroom rather than lecture....which I absolutely love.  I realised that I should have tried to learn the Greek Alphabet beforehand haha.  But it was still okay.  In a way it was easier than I thought it would be, as each letter had a distinct english equivalent sound.

Had morning tea at around 11am till 11:30am.  I realised a guy also named Kevin was in my class.  Now I met Kevin during Ridley open day, so it's good seeing him again.  The class was mostly white people, with a few asians, and a few african background.  Dunno why but I found it a bit hard to integrate with the people.  All felt a bit awkward and everything.  Hopefully things will be better as time goes on.  It was mainly guys, and all the white girls huddled together and instantly formed groups/cliques lol....

Anyway class finished around 1pm.  I was gonna eat lunch but ended up checking out the library, and then started cramming in the 24 letters of the greek alphabet and how to pronounce them.  Also the dipthongs etc.  Actually very very draining.  Probably studied from 1:30 till 3:30ish.  Then went home.

When I got home I was so drained...and just wanted to watch my anime on the TV.  But parents had a friend over (some young exchange student who's somehow related to my dad somehow..).  I was way too tired to make conversation with her, so just ended up in my room.  Took a nap from 5-7pm cuz I was so brain dead.  That's probably why I'm struggling to fall asleep now haha.

Overall the day's been good.  I felt like there wasn't enough hours in the day actually lol!  Hopefully it'll keep being good!  

Tests start in 2 days tho....so so scaryyyyyyyyyy >.<

New life is scary but so awesome.  But no job atm so just being a student bum lol!

New Year

The new year...

So much on my mind

So many things need to change

Whether good or bad we'll have to see.

I haven't written on here in ages

Somehow didn't feel like writting anything

Hm even now I don't know what to say

Sometimes you feel a lot of things

Then after a while you just can't be bothered anymore.

So much time, so much energy

Wasted

On stupid things

It's better to just move on, and leave the past behind.

Last day of work in 3 more days

Then my life moves onto a new chapter

New things

New people

New direction