Missing Photography..

Sigh I miss photography..

Life is so much simpler with photography...

Trying really hard to find reasons to be in this world atm...

Biblical Hebrews or Not?

At the moment faced with a dilemma for next year's subject choices:

Should I do Biblical Hebrews or not?

One of my main passion for entering Theology College was to try to learn how to read the Bible in its original language - ie Ancient Greek and Hebrews....  However there's a lot of factors now.

1. There's way too many other subjects I want to do, and if I do Hebrews, that'll take up 2 subjects that I could be doing something else.

2. How important is it to be able to read Hebrews?

3. I guess this is actually my main worry - I don't know if I'll be able to become very good at it.  Greek is already starting to wear me down.  I do very well in class and in tests, but when I open up the Bible and try to read it as it is in Greek....I find that I still can't.  There's still so many words I don't know...so many strange forms...  But I will persevere, and hopefully one day I will reach my goal of being able to open up the Greek Bible and just read it without any aids.

But this leads me to Hebrews.  Hebrews has ALOT (and I mean A LOT!!) more vocabs, in a writing style that I've never seen before.  Will I ever be able to master it?

I've seen too many pastors who learn original language only to lose it cuz they never really use it.  If that's gonna be the case with me and Hebrews, then I certainly DON'T want to waste 2 subjects doing it.

There's the option that I can just do the Intensive to get a sense of the grammar and alphabet, so I can read commentaries and stuff better.

In the end... I still want to do it.... but I worry that I'm going to regret it after next year...

But... to be able to read the Bible in its original language.....

         ..... soooo cool....  I want....

Late..

History Essay was due in today.

But I've been so stressed, that yesterday I decided just not to do it.  Stress' been driving me insane lately.

So I'll be handing it in late.  Up to a week late is loss of 15%.  I actually thought it was gonna be just 10%, but because our grading system as + and - (ie B+, B, B- etc..), one grade drop is 15%.  Oh wellz.

I've never actually handed anything in late before in my life.  It feels very weird.  I felt extremely weird yesterday knowing that I was going to hand stuff in late.  And yet today's been such a relief...

Been so busy with stuff....but that's just an excuse.  I know I should have gotten it done.  

Trying to get marks has been such a stressful thing in my life.  The expectations....  And yet marks didn't turn out to be worth anything.  Just stressing and shortening my lifespan for stupid reason.

I decided not to care so much about marks anymore...and just stress less.  I learnt a lot...and the marks do not really indicate how much I've learnt or not.

Next few days will be very busy...hope I actually have time to actually finish the essay haha...