So Fast..

A year has passed..

  It's only been a year?

I still remember last year.

  Christmas, and New Year.

    Seems like a life-time ago.

So much has changed.

  Life is so different now.

 Everything has changed.

Somehow this makes me very depressed and sad......

So Tired...

I'm so tired...

Been going out a bit too much again.

When I'm at home I want to be out.

When I'm out I don't mind being home.....

But overall it's been a good few weeks.

Though probably spending a bit too much money haha...

It's ok.... "I'm still young"....lol!  

(My favourite quote when ppl say I go out too much)

Getting sick...

Throat is sore

Today after work I felt really dizzy...

This Sunday is our Christmas service..

Gotta sing...how will my voice recover by then....

Maybe I should stay home and rest...

Too late already got plans tomorrow haha..

GG me... >.<

Vision/Realisation..

In my distress, my time of turmoil,

   I cry out to the Lord my God.

  Take my life, kill me now.

 For what is the purpose?  What is the point?

I cannot stop sinning,

   I cannot stop my emotions.

 I cannot stop my pain,

     I cannot stop my thoughts.

All day long I suffer,

  All night long I break apart.

Tossing and turning in my bed,

  Seeing nothing but darkness ahead.

Give me visions, visions of my future.

  Show me your plans, show me what you have in-store for me.

I cling onto you.... for I have nothing else.

  My only hope is on you, for I know that You are Amazing.

Apart from you, everything else is nothing.

    I am so pathetic...but at least You are Awesome....

And then I hear God's Words,

  Words that I already know:

"You cannot die yet, for I have plans for you.

  Amazing and Awesome plans

Laid out in your future.

 My will is Supreme

  And my will is for you to go on.

I will use you

  To Glorify Myself.

So strengthen your will and emotions.

    Stand up and keep walking.

  I have laid out a path for you

     And my will is for you to walk in it.

Do not despair

  For I am God

    And as you already know

   I am Amazing and Awesome

 And I Love you

With an everlasting Love."