Alone

You are long-suffering..

   Do not take me away;

 Think of how I suffer reproach

      For your sake.

When your words came

        I ate them;

  They were my joy

    And my heart's delight,

 For I bear your name,

     O Lord God Almighty

I never sat in the company of revelers,

    Never made merry with them;

  I sat alone because your hand was on me,

     And you had filled me with indignation.

Why is my pain unending

  And my wound grievous and incurable?

 Will you be to me like a deceptive brook,

    Like a spring that fails?

                                        God's Word.

Life

I have seen the burden God has laid on men

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

I know that there is nothing better for men

Than to be happy and do good while they live

That everyone may eat and drink

And find satisfaction in all his toil

This is the gift of God

I know that everything God does will endure forever

Nothing can be added to it

And nothing taken from it

God does it so that men will revere him

So I saw that there is nothing better for a man

Than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot.

For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

Then I realised that it is good and proper for a man to eat and drink

And to find satisfaction in his toilsome labour under the sun

During the few days of life God has given him

For this is his lot.

Moreover, when God gives any man wealth and possessions

And enables him to enjoy them

To accept his lot and be happy in his work

This is a gift of God.

Go, eat your food with gladness

And drink your wine with a joyful heart

For it is now that God favours what you do.

Always be clothed in white

And always anoint your head in oil

Enjoy life with your wife whom you love

All the days of this meaningless life

That God has given you under the sun.

For this is your lot in life

And in your toilsome labour under the sun.

Whatever your hand finds to do

Do it with all your might

For in the grave where you are going

There is neither working nor planning

Nor knowledge nor wisdom.

                                                  God's Word.

Need

God...

       I really need you right now.....

Death

What you don't get...

    Is that I pray for death

  Every single day of my life.

I will wait

    For God to give me that blessing.

Somebody I used to know..

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was "love" and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Blocked me off, not reply, or just get angry
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Blocked me off, not reply, or just get angry
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Insomnia

Far out my insomnia's coming back....

Gotta stop thinking....  I know I trust God.... but yet I can't stop thinking.

I need to sleeeeeppppp.....

Burdens and Loads

Burdens and Loads..

    Burdens and Loads...

Where is the line

   between bearing someone's Burden

  while letting them

       bear their own Load?

Amazing..

Something Amazing happened today....

Didn't feel like going...

   Always awkward afterwards....

  I'm not gifted in the skills of social networking

     Approaching and getting to know new people.

And yet, I went

    Coaxed by a friend.

  The service was good.

      The message was good.

Afterwards, during eating time

      My dreaded time....

   Due to my poor social skills.

       My inability to talk to new people.

However something amazing happened!

   I don't even know how it happened...

    My mind is a fuzz.

Suddenly I was talking to someone I've never seen before.

   And before I knew it our conversation became deeper and deeper.

About God

  About our youth groups

    About Pounds

  About Combine Youth

       About our interactions with people.

Suddenly I was sharing.

    I was explaining.

  I was listening.

       I was encouraging.

Something amazing will come out of this I'm sure.

On the drive home, I reflected.

    And I was sure God's Hand was on this night.

 So many factors.....

       I knew I was filled with the Spirit.

   I wasn't super high.

        But I felt this deep Love for God.

It's Amazing to be used by God.

  This morning before Sunday School.

     As usual I closed my eyes and said to God:

"I'm here, use me.  Tell me what to say"

I thought that was just for leading the Bible Study...

   But I guess God took the initiative and used it for tonight too.

God is Amazing.

Last thing I want to share is this:

"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths,

     but only what is helpful for building others up

   according to their needs,

       that it may benefit those who listen."

                                           God's Word

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ARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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What else?

I am found only in Christ...

What else do I have to offer?

   What else can I really boast about?

There really is nothing else..

     But isn't that enough?

   Shouldn't that be enough?

             

                  What else is needed?

Torn

"For to me 

       to live is Christ

   and to die is gain...

Yet what shall I choose?

    I do not know!

I am torn between the two:

       I desire to depart and be with Christ

    which is better by far."

"For you have been given 

        not only the privilege of trusting in Christ 

   but also the privilege of suffering for him."

Both Worlds..

I've spent my whole life not worrying about what other people think of me.

     Not worrying about clothes, or how I look.

  How popular I am,

        How funny I am.

If I can dance well, or impress people with certain skills.

   I would keep doing things, even if they were uncool.

All I have is God.

Other people are different.

They used to worry about how they are,

    How they can attract people.

        How they look, how they dress.

  How they can be cool.

And now God's called them.  They've changed.

     They love God, and are close to Him.

And yet.. they still have all the previous experiences.

   They still dress well,

      They're still cool,

   Their charisma and popularity.  Their ability to attract the people around them.

And at the same time being close to God.

They have the best of both worlds.....

How can I compete?

  I have nothing, besides God.

       And they have God too.

Thus we are the same.

    There is no contest...